Solo

So i just listening to kid cudi yesterday

and after recent events, its like i could hear just the words

rather than the beat, and this man was made to rap

his words lined my eardrums with honey

sounds kinda sticky and nasty

but still you get the point, sweet stuff :D

He got me thinking on two songs

''man on the moon '' and ''mr solo dolo''

what stuck out for me was loneliness

it is a state of being that many humans face

a fear that no one understands their real worth

it is not just enough to be friends these days

its almost like people want you to leech onto them

this is why pets are becoming increasingly popular

because they can take your abuse and still come cuddle

guess what mr. and mrs. lack of self confidence

being alone is essential to self growth

dont count on anyone if you dont have to

for every friend you make you make an enemy

Even your parents are not excluded from bringing you down

no matter how much being social is important

what really matter is you loving you before expecting anyone else to

because on those lonely nights you cry, it is only you that hurts

when you should be smiling and enjoying your own company

i mean think about it

ever fall down and hurt yourself

but look around and no one noticed

what do you, just pick yourself up

but the minute poeple notice, its almost like the pain is more

the human mind loves attention and it is quite disgusting to admit

there is no worse state of mind than always wanting to be noticed

it causes greed and jealousy, two terrible demons

For example, I threw up half my stomach contents last night

not sure why but no one was there to pat my back

when it was over, i did what i had to and went to bed

didnt even waste time calling and crying out to my parents

would have been great if they brought me ginger but i got it my self

it would have been great if they tucked me in but cmon i am 19 years old

grow out of your primordial need to be loved by others

and learn that you were most likely born alone and you will be buried alone

and the next time you feel betrayed

look at the situation and ask

who betrayed me? did i trust them for the wrong reasons

ignoring the people who actually care for you flaws and all

On the Wire

Damn. 3 days, no i didnt forget!

so caught up with work by the time I get home its a bee-line to the sack. *yawn*

had a great couple of days though, met up with a bunch of long lost friends, good times in the making :)

anyhow, back to the point of this post,

so time to lay down some quick advice and relate some life lessons ;)

addressing how to handle a break up / fight properly

am not just referring to people, this also applies to friendship

who is to say my way is best

but it sure is better than some stupid things i see people do

first rule of break up is never ''announce'' the relationship to begin with

the world would honestly be so much better without facebook

i mean it is so personal these days

and we allow it by posting our fights, family drama and ''love''

i remember when people had problems you would know because they told you

not on a long status airing out your lack of intelligence

using curse words constantly shows a low IQ and lack of self esteem

second rule is a decent break up environment

DONT text, email or tweet(see what i mean) your decision

look for a nice open space and talk gently

stating out your reason with reason

now if it starts to get heated

remember to always keep a low tone for civility

and if you cant help up it, just up and walk away

give space to clear your thoughts but DONT run away

it will only agitate feelings of resentment from the other party

third rule, never forget what it was like

the good are great but we always remember the bad more

not sure why but its human folly to hold on to past crimes

we always want justice and penance

it was good at some point

you probably threw out some words like ''i love you''

or ''best i ever had'' you know the regular corny crap

use that hold the friendship side of things

romantic involvements are bad to begin with if you are doing it without reason

but what is done is done, so salvaging a bond helps

i hate more than anything people who throw away relationships

i mean come one, we are not children out growing dolls

treat people the way you want to be treated

and people wonder why they are called ''whores''

fourth rule, don't jump into a re bound

biggest mistake is thinking the next nice who comes your way is MR RIGHT

NO he is exploiting you on the 11th man rule

sure he is cute but is that a real reason of attraction

what about you ACTUALLY get to know a person

one month is not enough, even after years of marriage couples still dont know

coming in to act the exact opposite of what you think you have

he will seem great but it will end because you have started an idiotic pattern

a pattern of dating and dumping, then moving ''on to the next one''

don't let your insecurities

cage down you morality

so what if all your friends have a cuddle buddy

man's need for affection is over rated, it never ends well 90% of the time

look around you, how many did you know that were dating that are still together?

years of ''dating'' can end any day but it doesn't have to end

because a real relationship isn't based on fb status changes and kissing

look up the real definition of romance

remove from your head the warped ideology of modern lust

i'm out for the night

much love

xoxo